Even as a little girl I was as tomboy as a girl could be, being an Army brat I preferred playing War over my Barbies. So it wasn't a surprise that I joined the Army when I was in my Junior year at College. I was already working two jobs while going to SHSU and decided to prove to myself (and everyone else) that I could do whatever I wanted! I was looking forward to going to Bosnia and experiencing combat as an MP. I was always upset when I saw fellow females playing the 'but I'm a girl' card and slacking in their duties; as far as I was concerned - if a guy could do it, so could I - and for the most part, I think I did...and even some more. I was picked on for being the "Golden Child", who could do no wrong - I maxed out my PT test, I won Soldier of the Month, Soldier of the Quarter (Company and Battalion) even turned down my chance for Soldier of the Year because I didn't want to miss out on our Battalions "War Games" - all while I was still taking college classes at night.
With that enlightenment it kind of makes you wonder why I never considered an abortion when I became pregnant with my boyfriend's baby - a whole soap opera of circumstances made it extremely messy. So why not an abortion - I was a woman's woman, empowered and successful - I was fast tracking, getting promotions, talk of special schools, all the things I desired; a pregnant unwed soldier was a HUGE stigma - no one in their right mind would give up all the glory for that difficult burden!
Yet, years before this, I had a personal relationship with Jesus. I knew Him as my Lord and Savior, and even though I was as far away from God as I could run - He never left me. I knew my situation was my own making, but I also knew without a doubt that the life inside me wasn't a curse, this was a blessing, and this was never my 'choice' - this was a life and it was never mine to take.
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
(Psalm 139:13-16 NIV)
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV)
God created you for a purpose. God knew who He created you to be. You weren’t created by accident (even if your parents claim you were). God is love - love doesn’t harm. A baby in the womb with a disease, syndrome or illness is no less a beautiful creation than one without. Each and every life is precious and to be cherished.
“What sorrow awaits those who argue with their Creator.
Does a clay pot argue with its maker?
Does the clay dispute with the one who shapes it, saying,
‘Stop, you’re doing it wrong!’
Does the pot exclaim,
‘How clumsy can you be?’
How terrible it would be if a newborn baby said to its father,
‘Why was I born?’
or if it said to its mother,
‘Why did you make me this way?’”
This is what the Lord says—
the Holy One of Israel and your Creator:
“Do you question what I do for my children?
Do you give me orders about the work of my hands?
I am the one who made the earth
and created people to live on it.
With my hands I stretched out the heavens.
All the stars are at my command.
(Isaiah 45:9-12 NLT)
For we are the product of His hand, heaven’s poetry etched on lives, created in the Anointed, Jesus, to accomplish the good works God arranged long ago. (Ephesians 2:10 Voice)
“Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child?
Can she feel no love for the child she has borne?
But even if that were possible,
I would not forget you!
See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands.
(Isaiah 49:15-16a NLT)
“The greatest destroyer of peace is abortion because if a mother can kill her own child, what is left for me to kill you and you to kill me? There is nothing between.”
As Christians, we count the Word of God as truth, and we know that by attempting to change God's designed family, essentially we have told God he had it wrong. We know God is mocked when people say marriage isn't just for man and a woman - because their way is better. We know any attempt to make things fit to human standards and not God's - is only to fulfill selfish desires. We know that picking apart scripture to twist into our own wants is a sin that we fear; it should make us afraid for those who've chosen acceptance in their worldly ways because they no longer fear God but only man's disapproval. We are not surprised that from this godless world fathers are mocked as weak and unimportant, children are burdens, and mothers are celebrated when they kill their unborn as empowered feminist. We see what was once beautiful has become corrupted and perverted.
“You can enter God’s Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it. (Matthew 7:13-14 NLT)
"We must not be surprised when we hear of murders, of killings, of wars, of hatred. If a mother can kill her own child, what is left but for us to kill each other.” Mother Teresa
We know that hard work pays off, so why is it a surprise that with time, the fast and painless way is only temporary and any ‘results’ just fade away. How many women have been deceived into believing that an abortion is quick and easy fix, that your ‘problem’ will just go away. But how many of these women are haunted by nightmares, wracked with guilt, emotional scars and pain? Women are naturally nurturers, everything about an abortion, is at odds with our very human nature - to protect, love, comfort and care for our children. Is this really empowering women or is it just another way to enslave women - even statistics show that women who aborted are at a higher risk of suicide.
“The greatest destroyer of love and peace is abortion, which is war against the child. The mother doesn't learn to love, but kills to solve her own problems. Any country that accepts abortion is not teaching its people to love, but to use any violence to get what they want.” Mother Teresa
For those who don’t count themselves as followers of Christ, they see the majority of Christians as uptight, self-righteous, hypocrites forcing their views on everyone else. But those who truly follow Christ, don't judge others, we know we are far from perfect, we just want to share with others what they are missing by not knowing Jesus as their personal Savior. If you knew something was so amazing that it could free you from your worst sins, give you new life and bring you joy and peace that the world can't give you - wouldn't you want to share it? Or if you knew something was bad for you and could harm you - you’d want to warn others - society understands that's what concerned friends do, they care about others and want the best for them - Christians are the concerned friends of the world. In the case of abortion we know that someone has to be voice for those who aren’t given a chance. Isn’t that why so many people rush to defend an innocent - whether it’s a small child, a puppy, or some endangered animal? So when someone tries to tell us that because a baby is in a woman’s body, it’s her choice - those of us who have been given new life through Christ recognize the voice of Truth - our good Shepherd, and recognize the deception of the enemy.
The thief approaches with malicious intent, looking to steal, slaughter, and destroy; I came to give life with joy and abundance.
I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down His life for the sheep in His care. The hired hand is not like the shepherd caring for His own sheep. When a wolf attacks, snatching and scattering the sheep, he runs for his life, leaving them defenseless. The hired hand runs because he works only for wages and does not care for the sheep. I am the good shepherd; I know My sheep, and My sheep know Me. (John 10:10-14 Voice)
"Abortion kills twice. It kills the body of the baby and it kills the conscience of the mother. Abortion is profoundly anti-women. Three quarters of its victims are women: Half the babies and all the mothers.” Mother Teresa
Before my promotion to E4 Specialist
the 'boyfriend' who is now husband, with out first son
our family volunteering at our church's kids camp this summer
I'm blessed to be married to this man, for better or worse, God has a plan for us - it's up to us whether we follow it or not.