I’m going to pick up my 21-day challenge with
accountability. Who are you accountable to? Do you have a Girlfriend in GOD that you can go to and request her to stand in
the gap for you? Have you ever thought of asking someone to help you with the
areas of your faith or life that you struggle with? GOD created us to lean on
HIM, yet HE also created us to need one another. Although my husband is my best
friend, I still need girlfriends (sisters in faith) that can relate to our struggles and issues, but most importantly that we can encourage each other
in our walk with GOD and have some accountability with.
I was on fire, I was doing so great with my 21-day challenge
(well at least I thought I was), but out of the blue I was given the
opportunity to go spend time away with my husband while he was at training in
the states. It was wonderful since he was only going to be in country for 3
weeks and already had been gone for 3 months! I was encouraged by my mentors in
my church, when they assured me that it’s okay to take time off from my blog,
my FB page and my volunteer work at my church when my husband is home.
Unfortunately, I let that lack of accountability go a bit
overboard during that time; I didn’t read my Bible or say my prayers during
that time (I usually spend about an hour a day praying for others and reading my Bible and devotions). I learned this Sunday
that the reasons for my behavior was rooted in fear. I was afraid I was disappointing GOD, and ended up letting the enemy whisper his lies to me, I felt shame and guilt, so I avoided
GOD, instead of repenting and seeking forgiveness. I know I’m happiest when I’m close
to GOD and following HIS will, so why did I allow myself to listen to those lies, was it the lack of accountability? If I had a girlfriend in God that I could be honest enough with and say, "I haven't been praying or reading my Bible, I feel terrible, I want to, but I keep coming up with excuses" maybe if I had someone to nudge me and say, "I know your hubby is home for a short time, but what if you just take 30 mins a day for GOD instead of your usual time...". In the end, the blame is all mine, but it's something that has been a burden to me and now that I'm getting back into my routine again, I needed to share this, to keep myself accountable and to hopefully encourage you if you've ever 'fallen off the wagon' before or if you ever do in the future. I’m comforted knowing that God
never left me and because I have a repentant heart and spirit, I’m just as much
a beloved child of GOD today as I was before. I also know that GOD teaches us,
even when we don’t see a teachable moment or event in our life, GOD can use any circumstance to build up ourselves and others.